MAY H.D. KAY KUYA

Here’s a letter from one of my readers, hope you guys can share your thoughts on this sensitive issue.

Dear J,

         

         I have this problem that I have been hiding. You can call me “Bob” nalang. You see J… I want to try and have sex with my brother. I know hadlok, scary and dili masabot pero curious lang jud ko. I just wanna know something man gud. Nag start ni sauna pa, mga 14 years ago. Tungod sa certain incident na happen. We share a room together. Sometimes dula-dula lang nga i-touch ang penis with the hand, binuang nga pumping each other, our penis are not erect man pud. Brotherly fun lang. Pero there was this one time nga nag dare sya. He said i-suck ko niya if i-suck pud nako siya. I did not know what to do adto nga time, bata pa ko. Dula-dula raman to gud. So he came near to my bed and pulled my shorts, my dick hardened pud. I do not know why! Pero my brother sucked my penis mga five ka up and down sa iya head, then nagkatawa dayon ko! He laughed hard pud! Now it was my turn daw, he also pulled down his shorts and big jud penis ako brother, tambok! Utog na kaayo sya. I was scared na jud. Gipa doul nako ako ulo sa iya penis, I closed my eyes, I opened my mouth and placed my tongue sa iya penis. Then that was it! Nagkatawaha na dayon mi! Then I told him ‘Loud man!’ then katawaha napud mi.

I have been bothered by this all my life gyud, now I’m 24 years old. I had 4 boyfriends na. Close pa japun mi ako brother but he got married 3 years ago.

Straight jud ako kuya or bisexual siya? Mao na ako question, that’s why I want to try having sex sa iya. Pero I’m scared to do the first move. Lami naman gud ako brother samot na nga ga gym sya. Tempting kaayo. Unsa imo opinion ani J? Para once and for all I would know the answer. Thanks! And more power to you blog! Ako share ako gay friends imo blog kay lingaw man gud. God bless!

Bob

My reply…

Dear Bob,

          Wow! That was indeed scary! I mean with your brother pa! Well, I must say you’re very brave for telling me and I thank you for sharing your story. Bob, I must say not to do anything that can harm or may destroy your relationship with your brother. You mentioned that you are still close di ba? I suggest you maintain that closeness by respecting yourself and your brother too.

Your brother is married and has a family of his own. He moved on from those childish games you did together. I think you should do the same. You are an adult.  I know I’m not an expert in giving advices but I think many people would agree with me that it’s the most logical thing to do. Given the present situation, it’s wise not to try anything reckless. Sure, you’re curious about your brother but I think you should keep your sexual ideas to yourself. It’s not healthy Bob. Not at all... I have a brother and when we were little, we used to touch each other’s dicks for fun lang. You know, the teasing type children do.We were kids.

Kids. Kids. Kids.

You should remember that. 14 years ago right? I’d guess you were 10 years old back then. So much innocence pa! You even stressed in your letter na “dula-dula” lang or games only. You’re brother probably just did it for fun and maybe he was just curious too. Yun lang yun, as they say. If you brought up the topic to him now, he might not even recall it for it may not be significant on his part. Ma awkward na hinoon mo. Think about the possible outcome of your actions, that’s all there is to it. The situation varies on an individual’s perception on things. What’s memorable to you, may not be on his part. You have gay friends, seek advice from them too, those lang that you can trust. I’m pretty sure they would agree about not pursuing the plans you have on your brother.

Kind regards,

J the Pinkheartedbisdak

INSTANT BF DURING SEX

This happened two weeks ago. To be fair sa guy, let’s call him Mr. Accountancy Student or AS nalang for short. By the way, he has a nice ASS man pud. Super lambot pero full like a meaty bun. He is 24 years old, he kept on shifting daw kaya he’s yet to graduate. Yeah… Yeah… OK...Whatever…AS and I have been texting for about a year already. My so malandi of a cousin gave his number to me kasi he got kinda sad because I have been loveless na daw for a year. Pero haller to my cousin, I am very fine on my own kaya (Denial!). AS and me never really met for that span of one year due to mga pakipot reasons naming dalawa. He was preoccupied in school and I was also busy with my work. All we did was text and text and text and text… well, sometimes he calls. Dapat lang siya ang mag call! We did some sexting (That’s sex-texting for those born in the 1800’s) and some nasty phone sex too. Pero it’s so hard to get aroused when you don’t actually know what the person looks like right? He has a very sexy voice. So as a consolation, I jacked off while imagining I was talking to Marc Nelson…Yum. Siguro he was so kati na kaya he finally decided it’s time for us to meet. We exchanged pictures online. He was cute, medyo may laman, meaty and packed. Chinky eyes and semi-kalbo. I trusted him well enough, I mean one year nami ga communicate, might as well do it. Yeah, I know...soooo gullible ko naman. I was horny na rin eh! OK slap me right and left with a pirated DVD you bought in Divisoria!

It was around 3 PM. I know it’s still very early. I told you we were pretty horny na. So nothing’s too early for us. I know you can relate! We agreed to meet at a pastry shop in the city… He looks exactly like the picture he sent me only he was a bit bigger than I expected. Tumaba siguro ng konti. I don’t care air-air-air-air-air! From there we took a taxi to one of the famous “hide outs” around Kauswagan Highway. We went inside the room, I was medyo pa hiya-hiya pa because the guide kept on staring at us. Maybe he wanted to join the fun? AS placed his things on the table while I went to the bathroom to take a quick shower. He joined me a moment later, his thingy was ready. Ang laki! He shaved his pubes so it looked a lot bigger. Excited si dodong! I began to get hard also. He took the showerhead and sprayed water over his warm body. I offered him the soap but he told me I should “sabon” him daw. OK fine. I scrubbed his neck and chest area, down to his belly, I continued to his groin area and reached out back to his butt. All this time, we were kissing and he kept on stroking my oh so hard dick. We rinsed and dried off.

We continued our action on the bed. He has full lips but was an average kisser, I’d rate him 7 out of 10. He went down and licked my neck and nipple areas. I was in heaven! My nipples are my weakness. He payed particular attention to those spots, he could probably feel the response I was giving out. I moaned loudly. He continued to trail his tongue on my belly button and finally swallowing my stiff snake whole. His warm mouth seemed to melt me. He sucked like there was no tomorrow. AS stopped and his lips met my lips. A sign that it was my turn to return the favor. I licked and sucked his nipples, they were big. Nice. I then went down and licked his balls, he had his two hands behind his head and was looking at me. Clearly he wanted to enjoy the view. I gripped his throbbing dick and placed my eager mouth over it. AS was cursing here and there…the usual. He told me to stop because he was near climax. I did as told. I laid back on the mattress and he continued to pleasure me below. After a while, he stopped and mouthed words I couldn’t believe I was hearing at the moment:

AS: Pwede mag uyab na ta?

Me: Uhh.. sure ka? (Whatdaaaaaaaaaaaa?!?!?!)

AS: Oo. Sure ko. Ganahan man gud ko nimo. Nag basol gani ko ngano karon pa ta nag meet.

Me: Lagi. Sauna ra unta ta ingani (Piskot ba sad!)

AS: Mao gyud.( I could see desperation in his eyes)

Me: hehe… *silence*

AS: So… uyab nata?

Me: Ok ra sa ako… (Ataya!!!)

AS: Kalami. I LOVE YOU!

Me: …love u too… ( waaaaaaaaa!!! Notice wala ko nag gamit ug “I” )

And he went on with his routine. We then continued to suck each other’s cocks. He came first in my mouth. I spat it out. As a health professional, I’d rather not swallow it. He told me that I should come on his face. When I was near, I quickly stood near his face and spurted my seeds. I felt like a porn star. We took another shower to clean after ourselves. He ordered food for us to celebrate our new relationship. Ewwwwwww… here?

It’s so tacky kaya. AS told me ahead that he is a bit possessive, he wants an update of every where I go.“A BIT” DAW OH?!?! That he doesn’t want to receive a text when I’m at a certain place already. He should know ahead. Dapat I should tell him who I’m with daw, etc. During this time, I knew we were destined to last for a few days lang. I’m not someone’s property you silly boy. I have learned a lot from my previous commitments. After consuming our ‘celebratory meal’, we called for a cab to deliver us back to the city. When we got out, we parted ways, I told him I’m going home already. A few minutes later, I received a text from him. “Going ko balik sa school na, I’m happy we met. I LOVE YOU. Aha ka paingon?”. GRRRRR… He’s asking for an update already when I had just told him I heading off home. My blood’s beginning to boil na ha.

Messages that followed…

AS: Wala lagi ka reply

Me: I’m mobile now, hadlok ko ma snatch ako phone while ga text sa dalan. Adto sa diay ko Red Ribbon kay naa ko paliton snack.

AS: Ha? Ingon ka pauli naka balay ninyo

ME: I can change my mind naman dba? I’m not a robot who’s programmed.

AS: Ah… ingon ka uli naka dayon.

ME: magpalit ko makaon ako mom. Di diay pwede? (LETCH BA SAD!)

AS: K.

Around 8 PM…

AS: Hello. I LOVE YOU. Aha ka?

ME: love u too.. (Gaaaah!) I’m home ra gihapon. Ga ready stuffs for my work tomorrow.

AS: wala lagi ka text?

ME: I had my dinner kanina, alang mag text ko while magkaon.

AS: Ah…hehe. Nag text dayon unta ka after eating.

ME: I prepared my stuffs for work pa after.

AS: Ah…Basin naa kay ka chat online ha. (Where the hell did this come from?)

ME: Wala. Listen, I’m kinda getting tired of this Update2x thing. Don’t tell me you want an update of me tying my shoelace? an update of me changing the channels sa TV? an update of me opening the door? an update of me typing the letter A on the keyboard. Please lang!

AS: Aw, grabe sad ka. Mingaw lang ko nimo.

ME: That’s not a excuse, It’s pure BS to me! I don’t want any part of this. Now pa lang I’m tired.

AS: What do u mean? Bulag na ta?

ME: Can I say YES? If pwede, then YES.

AS: OK.

ME: OK din. Bye.

End of INSTANT BF.

You are in a state of pleasure na and he asks you if pwede maging kayo? If you’d say no, he’d probably stop. I said yes, purely so we can get on with our deed. Nothing more. I was afraid of hurting him. Despite my being pagka bad, I still am very soft-hearted in considering other people’s feelings. But in the end, he made sakal me na. We were new pa kaya. So, bye bye bye… Insert *NSYNC song here please.

The Gay Alphabet

THE CUTIE CALLBOY

I was strolling around Divisoria last week, around 8 in the evening. I just finished having dinner with my old classmates from High School. It was a mini-reunion to reminisce the care-free days. I passed around Velez-Cruz Taal Streets, then paliko to Jollibee. As I scanned the many faces, there was this guy wearing a body hugging yellow shirt attempting to smile at me. At least I thought he was. I was like… You smiling at me? But I guessed he was smiling at everyone else, just trying to see who’ll get hooked by his charm. As I passed him, I rotated my neck ( SLOW MOTION PLEASE ) and saw that he was still smiling at me. I took a second glance at him and he was still glued at my direction. Could it be love? Serendipity, that I would meet this good looking creature. Mangarap ka ng gising! I said to myself. This is not a movie!

We played tag. I took a turn around Pabayo Streets, just to check if he really was interested in me. If he is, he would get the idea and meet me around. And he did! I stopped at a corner near Rose Pharmacy, pretending to text someone, a defense mechanism used by most people to hide the awkwardness. Aminin!!! He came right up to me. Still smiling. Pa cute jud kaayo. I can’t resist! He is shorter than me, slim, medyo spiked ang hair. But I can’t stop looking at his eyes, they looked sad, needing attention. Or gakadala lang ko?

We talked…

Callboy: Hi. Naa kay kauban?

Me: Wala man. Ako ra isa.

CB: Ah. Lodge ta? (Kadali gud! No beating around the bush. So much for Serendipity!)

Me: Ha? Aha dapit? (Curious daw oh!)

CB: Dana ra sa King William. ( How obvious naman! )

Then… my first cousin suddenly came into view. Patay ko karon. We said our kumustahan kadali, I’m so glad it was short because I don’t know how to introduce my new companion. Guilty man! My cousin then went on his way…

Me: Hehehe. Ako ig-agaw to.

CB: OK ra. So unsa man…tagai lang dayon ko 500. Palipayon jud tika bai. Tila-an ko na imong itlog. (By this time I smelled something awful but I couldn’t be sure what)

Me: Wala man ko dala daghan kwarto karon bai. (Char lang gud! Basin ma hangyo)

CB: OK ra 200 nalang bai. Malipay gyud ka nako. ( I smelled it again!)

Me: Basin pwede next time nalang ta, taga-i nalang ko imo number.

CB: Karon nalang bai, lami na kaayo. Dako ning ako-a lagi, dili ka magmahay. ( There goes the smell again! It’s his BREATH!!!!!)

Me: (Hesitant na) Sunod nalang siguro, gadali pa pud ko bai.

CB: Sige na bai, karon na lang. (Definitely his breath! Yuck na gyud!)

Me: Sunod nalang lagi…. ( ug nahadlok nako, he may hold-up me or what )

CB: Sige nalang, tagai nalang ko kwarta gamay, gutom naman gud ko. (Kaya siguro baho ng hininga mo)

Me: OK, next time na. (I handed him a 50 Peso bill, too cheap or too generous? I barely knew him kaya!)

Him: Salamat. Kita-kita rata puhon ( I hope we don’t!)

He turned around the corner and he was gone. Wala na din ang foul breath! Thank goodness! It was really bad. I couldn’t imagine kissing him at all! And him licking me. Kadiri talaga… sobra! Even if I’d gargle and wash my body all day, the stink would probably still linger. Cutie nga pero super minus naman sa oral hygiene. I’d rather kiss my dog.

THE CEBU MASAHISTA

Ok… So like, this happened a year ago when I was in Cebu City. I went there by myself. I stayed at a hotel near Mango Avenue. But prior that, I managed to post my travel advert at a certain website. Days before my trip, I already received a lot of naughty and OH so tempting invitations.

I finally succumbed to one because:

A.)  He offered a good massage…500 Pesos (Pricey ba?) and

B.)  He said he was good looking

So it was around 9 PM already but I was still hesitant to invite him to my hotel room. The BIG reason was that he might be a killer. PRAMIS!!! OK… laugh all you want and you may ‘palo’ me na with a frying pan but it’s TRUE. Really… I was freakin’ scared. My imagination would go from him suffocating me with a pillow to actually stabbing me to death with a knife. I’d be helpless of course! I’d be on my back and he’d be on top of me, he would have all the advantage. Then he might take my money and I’d have nothing to spend for new clothes na in Ayala… huhuhu.  So anyhoooooo…. I texted him that I’d want his massage service and he replied pud that he was available.

10 PM, fresh na fresh na me, bagong ligo. Ahem ahem… mag expect ba naman for something! He arrived outside the door carrying a man-purse, containing his massage thingies. He was cute, not good looking but cute. So much for selling himself! He had a childish grin which I found irresistible, he had a medium built body and a skin with a golden glow to it.  We chatted a bit, he said that he’s been doing this for 2 years na, he’s a student DAW, he needs additional income DAW. Typical. I thought to myself. He then told me to lie down with my underwear lang, I’ll make ‘hapa’ na daw on the bed. During this moment, nanginginig na talaga ako. But I have a secret weapon though… A BALLPEN! Yes! A ballpen, blue ang ink nya. I hid it under the mattress in case I would need it when he will stab me na. At least I have something to defend myself. HAHAHA. Paranoid na gyud ko!

He took of his shirt and pants, said he needed to do it para he can move freely daw. Echos mo dong! He started with my back and neck, sliding down to my thighs… ang bilis ha! As a creature of comfort and a frequenter of spas in CDO, he wasn’t supposed to do that pa. But I let him be, style nya siguro different. I can tell something interesting is coming, he was sliding hid hand down my butt and stroking it with a bit of urgency now. I felt something stiff! He was sooooo erect already. He was rubbing his penis behind me. A new massage technique perhaps? He slid off my boxer-briefs gently. He had full access to my ass now, he caressed it and added more oil and down he went to my legs and feet. By this time, I was SO HARD already. He ordered me to lie on my back. Scchwing! Naka Flag Raising ceremony na talaga ang dick ko. He ignored it. Kevs… he continued to massage my chest, my belly. He would occasionally pass by my groin area, teasing me I bet. He went down my thighs and legs. His finale was stroking my crotch area for a long time without really touching my throbbing penis. I could tell I was spurting pre-cum already. What a tease he was!

He whispered in my ear “Sir, gusto kag extra service?”

Me: Ha? ( pa innocent! As if wala nag expect!)

Him: Extra service sir, gusto ka?

Me: Pila man? (Yes! Yes! Yes!)

Him: Ikaw sir, add lang ug 500.

Me: Wala man ko ka withdraw bai, 200 ra ako madugang (Pa effect! Ka mahal tapos wala na tarong ug massage!)

Him: Aw ok rana sir, 200 nalang (Tanawa! Pwede raman diay barato!)

ITS SHOWTIME!!! He took off his underwear and WOW! It was the LONGEST son a bitch dick I’ve EVER…EVER encountered! It was really long! And I’m not exaggerating. An 8 incher maybe? That’s what I guessed. Wala akong ruler na glow in the dark kaya! He placed his fully erect cock in my mouth and I had no hesitation to try this delectable looking popsicle. Dee-lish. He sucked me as well and we did the usual “I-suck-you-you-suck-me” maneuver. A couple of sucking and licking exchanges later and we decided to cum together. Cue in the Beatles songs please. We stroked our joysticks and I rolled on top of him and exploded on his stomach, he jizzed out a few seconds after me. Whhheeww! We cleaned up and I payed him for his services. He put his clothes back on and went out as quickly as he came in.

That was my first and probably last sex-for-pay experience. ‘Twas nice but it was scary.

My McDreamy

Akihito Sato... Sorry that I missed to see your fashion show last year at SM CDO. Late na when I found out. I'll see you soon... *sighs* My underwear is wet na.

VIRGIN!

Hullo everyone! Thanks for visiting my curb. This would be my first blog. For those of you asking... why now?!? Well....... it really was just a matter of time when i finally decided.... WHY NOT NOW? I mean... it wouldn't hurt to try right? Cagayan de Oro City, the city in bloom, in boom and in blossom (Did I get these in order?) though a lot of people claim that it is very modern already, is still waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay backward when it comes to accepting people of the third sex. It's all HUSH HUSH...like the famous Pussycat Dolls song. Sure we see a lot of gay people walking around but on the back of straight people's mind, they want to kick `em to the side. I hang around with my heterosexual cousins during "inuman" sessions and whenever a gay person struts by, they can never help themselves to throw some burning comment. Imagine me trying to join the insulting episode, just so I can pass as one of the "BROS". I can't help but feel awkward... but one must not be too obvious! Huwag maging affected!!! Even in the place where I work, I am too conscious of my actions or the way I speak and behave. I have had a co-employee who exposed himself way too much and he was transferred to another department. Their shallow reason was that he was "incompetent". But I knew better. I mean... the guy was great at work but because of his sexual preference, people didn't see his potential. So I'm hoping to do what I can to reach out to my fellow Pink Cagayan-ons and beyond. So...lend me your thoughts! Apir!!!